I wasn’t depressed.

I was anxious, exhausted, overwhelmed, on edge, my emotions would get the best of me. I just wasn’t myself.

But I was not depressed.

Except that I was. I just didn’t know it at the time.

My issue was specific and a bit more recognizable because I had recently given birth to twins. Post-partum depression is more common than most may think, and even more common in mothers of multiples, where hormone levels are jolted and exhaustion is greater than with a single baby. I was fortunate in knowing some of the resources available in Salmon Arm from my doctor and public health nurses, and was able to reach out to those resources when I needed them. I completed a screening assessment and realized that I did, in fact, fit the profile of a depressive illness.

Others in our community are not always sure where to turn, especially, when like me, their symptoms don’t mimic the stereotypical image of a “depressed” person. Often people with depression also try very hard to mask their feelings in public, putting on a brave front, for fear of stigma or embarrassment. They may try to deny anything is wrong or make excuses. I, too, must confess to this, as it was a difficult decision to let the whole community in on a very personal, difficult time in my life. But I also feel strongly that in order to break a stigma, it must come out of the shadows. People need to step up and reveal themselves, so others may understand, sympathize and possibly even see themselves in a similar situation and get assistance.

I encourage others to do this in my job, and I would feel hypocritical if I hid from it. With help from medical professionals and the support of others who have been in my shoes, I feel healthy again. Mood disorders like depression and anxiety affect approximately one in every seven people at some point during their life. And that is an important message for anyone out there who feels that depression has come into their life. There are resources available to help. In particular, there is a special service being offered for those who may feel like something is wrong with them, but they can’t quite put a finger on what it is.

Tomorrow, Oct. 8, from 10 a.m. to 4 p.m. is the Beyond the Blues, a Depression and Anxiety Education and Screening Day. The event is province-wide, but will take place in Salmon Arm at the Okanagan College campus. A free and confidential screening site will be set up to offer information and allow for self-tests on depression, anxiety and risky drinking, and the chance to speak privately with a clinician. No appointments are necessary. There are specially-tailored screening forms available for adults, children, teens, and for people who are concerned about a friend or family member.

Resources are also available through a website: www.heretohelp.bc.ca or call toll free 1-866-917-HOPE (4673).

As I was reminded when my depression hit, reaching out to get help isn’t a weakness. It’s a strength.